May the Wind Take Your Troubles Away

it's sipping tea in the morning watching the sun breaks the horizon. turning the page to my favorite part. taking off all my clothes midday and dancing in my underwear. deciding to not regret this if it never happens. working on being better at doing instead of talking about doing. sucking up failure through a straw and then spitting it out-it won't ruin me, it can't ruin Him. wondering up all the what if's and then writing them all off. maybe writing a book. maybe writing more poems. getting published by march first- with andy and nicole. drinking less coffee. praying in the morning before i brush my teeth. praying. if you are in trouble and you come to me i am worthless but trust me, He isn't and He is here, there. it's knowing that it wasn't my fault. it's knowing that i can help other's like me. it's knowing that it hurts it feels bad but it will feel better some day. making sure that everyday isn't wasted in a furry of doubt, confusion, and pain. we can't change our past. we can't change what just happened. i can do better. i am better. it's knowing that i am loved.